Let’s begin by jumping in with both feet! If I’m committing to a new way of eating and fully focusing on helping my mental status. We have to add in a few other things.

1. Exercise
2. Meditation
3. Journaling ( this blog )

These are huge in the world of healing yourself, and in my world both can do a lot for clearing my head.

Today I willed myself to wake up and focus on the things I am grateful for ( it sounds so cheesy saying it that way). It’s so important to focus on the good and focus on all that’s going wrong in my life.

Yesterday I was living my best me… We got up went to the farmers market and then hit up a u-pick veggie / flower farm on the way home, when we got home we cleaned up outside and I got to play in the garden. It reminded me of what I’m working towards and where my goals are. I allow myself to get so caught up in the stressfulness of work and everyone else’s issues I in turn get all stressed out and find myself hating my job and dreading having to head to work Monday morning. I have allowed this to interfere with so much of my life and control so much of my unhappiness. Where if I truly sit back and re-evaluate what is going on in my life I have nothing to be so worked up over. I blow things up in my head so much and allow myself to get so overwhelmed it takes all the joy out of me. Why can’t I just let work be work and walk away when I’m at home? I have big dreams I’m working for. I can’t get to those dreams without this job right now. I end up binge eating, feeling horrible, crying and crashing by the end of the week. Who lives like this!?

This is why I am 200+ pounds and struggling with my weight and happiness. I somehow need to be happy with me. Why can’t I let things go and live for today. I stress over the what-if’s months away. My breakdowns have got worse over the last year or so and I do believe all this is enter twined and I am the only one in charge of healing myself. My one goal is to be happy without taking a medication to get there. The amount of commitment I will have to put in, is more then I have ever accepted and I’m ready.

The connection with food and meditation is whole heartedly all connected. This is my time to commit to myself and heal from within.

My heart and head need to connect and work together again. Food, meditation, journaling and exercise is what’s going to get me there.

What have you done to heal yourself from within?